Cinere, Where The Life Goes On

Here i am! woi hari ini lagi ga terlalu baik nih, beneran jadi sensi lagi gue fufufu yak gatau kenapa sejak pulang sekolah sampe detik gue bikin tulisan ini, ada yang agak mengganggu dipikiran gue. Oke emang kedengerannya super random, but its true! ya mungkin gue hari ini sempet agak galau setelah gue ga sengaja ngeliat Update pm BBM "someone" itu ya sandi kan saja dengan nama N. sebenernya sisa chat di bbm gue sama dia beberapa hari lalu belom gue close, dan kebaca tuh update statusnya.

Based on her pm, i think she is happy at the moment. ya gpp sih, gue seneng kalo dia seneng but as everyone know how hurt it is when you got a crush around you, it's not too good to see anything related to her, not to mention how good or bad it is. mungkin kedengerannya gila, "masa cuma gara2 pm bisa jadi galau?"

gue sendiri juga selalu nanyain hal yang sama, but that's the fact. that's what actually happen. ya biarpun gue udah mutusin buat staying away from her for a "while", but the feeling is still there. dan satu lagi, tadi gue ke tempat bimbel, dan disana sepi. sebenernya gue nungguin seseorang sih, yaa cuma maksud buat ngobrol aja, but gue ga terlalu deket sama dia dan kebetulan tadi dia dateng pas gue udah masuk kelas, pas pulang sempet ketemu sih, tapi gue langsung pulang aja lah daripada nanti gue ketemu sama si N ini, malah jadi makin gaenak gue, dan jujur aja gue takut bikin si N ini bete juga kalo gue starts acting weird around her. Karena gue gabisa nahan2 sesuatu yg ada di pikiran gue jadi kalo gue lagi mikir aneh pasti yg keluar juga aneh2. jd mendingan gausah aja. iya kan? iyalah T_T

hmmm mau lanjutin galaunya gaenak takut kalo nanti ada yang baca. tp gimana ya honestly i miss her a lot. she's start to getting away from me after the first time she caught me lagi galau sejak dia tau itu karena dia yaaa, gue rasa pasti bisa nebak sendiri gimana kelanjutannya haha. She's getting close with my friends and sharing stories with them. the same story in which she says she can't told anyone about the person behind her story, tapi nyatanya pas gue ketemu dia dan temen gue yang lain... mereka semua udah tau the exact person and what happen between her and this "Anonymous". yaa ini bukan masalahnya gue jealous apa gimana.. but i used to be so close with her, that we almost share every stories together. tp sekarang.. yaah emang itu masa lalu sih yaa hahaha

okaay gues that enough. seneng juga gue bisa nulis disini hahaha